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Sunday, February 21, 2010

Regarding Saying Goodbye

Please be kind and stop by my sweet friend Beth's blog The Stories of A to Z and encourage her. She just lost a very important person in her life. Please pray for her.

Psalm 23
The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

My parents have the 23rd Psalm on their headstone at the local hometown cemetery and it brings me great comfort and always has. When I go home some weekend I will get some pics at the cemetery. The history is incredible and even as a child I was never fearful in the cemetery. In fact, my mama taught me to drive my daddy's big ole truck in that cemetery with its tight corners and narrow little roads. My uncle Louie use to throw money on the ground and when we were very small we thought God was throwing money at us! LOL! We also picked the very best mulberries in that Roselawn cemetery. Lots of my phamily members are  buried there and I love to wander around and look at the old graves and see the different people buried there and think about how their lives must have played out.

My unborn daughter Rachel Lee is buried at the Mount Olivet cemetery in Wheatridge, CO. It is a Catholic cemetery and in the Spring and Summer you can see the beautiful swans swimming in the pond and  watch them from the little bridge that crosses that pond. She is in a grave in Baby Land and I am always sad to see so many little lives that were lost before they even had a chance to know their phamilies better! But it is also a place of great comfort because I know my beautiful child is with her Maker and she is at peace and in perfect form. My sweet little baby does not have any fancy grave marker as we never could afford to place one on her grave but I know our darling daughter is enjoying the perks of Heaven with someone far better then a fancy marble marker.

These days I do not get so sad about the loss of Rachel because I know God had a different plan for my life and it included Rebekah, Hannah and Nicholas. I do believe God knows all things and He had my life in a different place 23 years ago. I believe I will be able to embrace my daughter in heaven one day and therefore I have been able to deal with her loss through the years. I will never forget my lil angel as long as I have life in me but I believe God's plan is always the way He intends for us to go on.

Please say hello to Beth as she is one of the kindest people I know here in blog land. Thank you for allowing me to share this with you.

8 comments:

Jenny said...

This is a beautiful and poignant post. I'm sorry for your pain. And I will go visit your friends blog right now!

maryt/theteach said...

Anne, the URL for Beth's Blog doesn't work at least it doesn't for me. I'm very sorry for your friend's loss.

Irma's Rose Cottage said...

What a lovely post. Sorry to hear about your friend, I will definetly go over and visit. Will be keeping her in prayer.

Thanks for stopping by and please come back for more visits.

Irma :)

Irma's Rose Cottage said...

Just a note to let you know the URL for Beth's Blog doesn't work for me either.

Irma :)

Mimi said...

Hi, I came over from Mary T's. I love that psalm too! My brother used to sing it every Sunday at Mass. I asked him to sing it at my wedding, and he did, beautifully. I don't know how he did it, as I choked up remembering my Mum, who had passed on to Heaven 8 months previously. It was one of ther favourite hymns.
Thanks for a lovely post.
Your words on your daughter Rachel are so brave. Love Mimi

Annesphamily said...

Thanks everyonr. I am trying to resolve this button/url problem iz seem to constantly have following me around! Thank you so mcu for your nice comments.

Dogmom Diva said...

Anne, I fixed your url and sent you some directions on how to post those..hope you got them..

Does not seem like 23 years ago that you lost Rachel..that was just the saddest thing how that happened and the pain you went through..glad you have more or less come to terms with God's plan..she is in a better place and you WILL see her again..
xoxox

Beth@The Stories of A to Z said...

Hi friend,
So sorry for your own loss and wanted to thank you for reaching out to others for me. I also apologize that it has taken me so long to get over here! Blessings to you,
Beth