The Broken Heart

I have been searching the Scriptures. I wanted answers and God, who is ever patient with me, provides me with His Word.

I am hanging on to this and all of the Scripture I find. Early in the morning of SONday August 4, 2019 our precious great grand boy Alastor Avery was taken from this life. They say SIDS was the cause. It is hard to understand . It is not a good answer. This photo was made by my dear heart friend Joni Kissinger Martines. I am usually good with words. These past days have been terrible. Words do not come to my mind. Yet God places Scripture in front of my eyes.

We had watched this precious boy and his brother on Friday evening. I did not feel well and was tempted to say no when my grandson asked me if I would watch the boys. You see, God always has a plan, and that evening He had a plan for us.

April 13, 2019, this boy was a "Chunky Monkey", and when I said that to him he laughed. He was very fond of Grandfather, because he shared part of his namesake "Avery". He could take or leave me although I could always make him laugh out loud!

April 14, 2019: His passing has left a hole inside our hearts. We join together and love each other harder than we ever have. You never know if this is the last time you will see a loved one or they will see you.

If you look around the world, you will see God really does have a plan . Our world has taken a wrong turn, not just in our country, but everywhere.

Cousin Jaslin enjoying some time with Alastor . He was well loved by all 27 of us in our phamily.

This boy loved this grandfather. Alastor always turned his head to see where he was when he heard his voice.

I try to check in with Tarrah, she is with Logan and he gave us a scare with a high fever. fortunately it broke but we prayed feverishly. I shared this with her and we both agree it applies to everyone. That little one is growing each day and he is a mighty warrior.

For all the outpouring of love with have received thank you.  It is hard to talk with those who care. Not because we don't care about you but simply because this is hard. Just know we appreciate you very much. Belonging to Pam's group, the Shelter:Postmarked has made me realize how important it is to care about others, even those we do not know. Many times I have received cards and notes from people who I was praying for. Nothing makes my day like real old fashioned mail in my mailbox. For many getting something like a card or note is all they have. We should never forget anyone.

I will miss your sweet face, I will miss seeing you splash in the bathtub with your brother. I will miss your beautiful blue eyes and your two tooth grin. You will not be able to go to a baseball game with Grandfather and me . You won't celebrate holidays with all of us and for that I am incredibly sad and my heart is broken. But I do know that you are in the arms of Jesus. He loves all the little children and it is the only real comfort I have.  I know that if I continue to love Jesus and His Father and don't allow things of this wicked world to upset me, I will come join you one day. I have heard heaven is very beautiful. I cherish the day you will give me a grand tour. You see Alastor Avery, my faith is all I have to trust in. Nothing of this world makes sense to me. Rest your little soul in eternal peace. I will see you on the other side. I Love you baby boy. My Chunky Monkey.

Heaven's Rocking Chair

© Ron Tranmer

Published: June 2014

Are there rocking chairs in Heaven
where little babies go?
Do the angels hold you closely
and rock you to and fro?

Do they talk silly baby talk
to get a smile or two,
and sing the sleepy lullabies
I used to sing to you?

My heart is aching for you,
my angel child so dear.
You brought such joy into my life
the short time you were here.

I know you're in a happy place
and in God's loving care.
I dream each night I'm rocking you
in Heaven's rocking chair.

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/heavens-rocking-chair