When I was first able to really talk about the loss of our unborn daughter Rachel, I met a wonderful Australian blogger who wrote her name in the sand at the sea and sent the photo to me. The object of this is to see that loved ones name and then know at some point the tide will come in and wash it away. The feeling it gave me made me feel a little better. But I know one day this beautiful child and I will be reunited in heaven with the phamily and that gives me great peace.
Losing this precious little life came on a beautiful Spring like day. I just knew in my heart she was no longer living. An appointment with the meanest doctor confirmed my fears. His unkind heart will forever be a reminder of that fateful day but I do not dwell on it. I remember the little life who once kicked and fussed for the first six months of her tiny life in-utero. I concentrate on the grace Christ provided for me, the many beautiful hearts who surrounded us in prayer and the thoughtfulness of many who shared their own stories of loss with me. The sadness happened on the same date as my big sis Patricia, celebrated another birthday, March 27, 1987. Little did I know I would lose that precious sissy years later, February 2001. Because of my VP Shunt and the fact that I had to have an antibiotic until the birth of this beautiful unborn but deceased child was difficult to say the least. She was delivered on April 17, 1987 without much fanfare. The moments we were allowed alone with her are forever etched inside my heart. A nearly perfect little person with ten fingers and ten matching toes. Long legs like her father and a beautiful little person who passed away for unknown reasons.
"Small Bump"
[Verse 1:]
You're just a small bump unborn, in four months you're brought to life,
You might be left with my hair, but you'll have your mother's eyes,
I'll hold your body in my hands, be as gentle as I can,
But for now you're scan of my unmade plans,
[album version:] A small bump in four months you're brought to life
[acoustic version:] A small bump in four months you'll open your eyes
[Pre-Chorus:]
[album version:] I'll whisper quietly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
[acoustic version:] I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
[Chorus:]
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
Oh, you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Verse 2:]
Oh, you're just a small bump unknown, you'll grow into your skin.
With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin.
Finger nails the size of a half grain of rice,
And eyelids closed to be soon opened wide
A small bump, in four months you'll open your eyes.
[Pre-Chorus:]
[album version:] And I'll hold you tightly, I'll tell you nothing but truth,
[acoustic version:] And I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
[Chorus:]
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
Oh, you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Bridge:]
And you can lie with me,
With your tiny feet
When you're half asleep,
I'll leave you be.
Right in front of me
For a couple weeks
So I can keep you safe.
[Chorus:]
'Cause you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Verse 4:]
'Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life.
Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why.
You're just a small bump unborn, in four months you're brought to life,
You might be left with my hair, but you'll have your mother's eyes,
I'll hold your body in my hands, be as gentle as I can,
But for now you're scan of my unmade plans,
[album version:] A small bump in four months you're brought to life
[acoustic version:] A small bump in four months you'll open your eyes
[Pre-Chorus:]
[album version:] I'll whisper quietly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
[acoustic version:] I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
[Chorus:]
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
Oh, you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Verse 2:]
Oh, you're just a small bump unknown, you'll grow into your skin.
With a smile like hers and a dimple beneath your chin.
Finger nails the size of a half grain of rice,
And eyelids closed to be soon opened wide
A small bump, in four months you'll open your eyes.
[Pre-Chorus:]
[album version:] And I'll hold you tightly, I'll tell you nothing but truth,
[acoustic version:] And I'll hold you tightly, I'll give you nothing but truth,
If you're not inside me, I'll put my future in you
[Chorus:]
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
Oh, you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Bridge:]
And you can lie with me,
With your tiny feet
When you're half asleep,
I'll leave you be.
Right in front of me
For a couple weeks
So I can keep you safe.
[Chorus:]
'Cause you are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
You are my one and only.
You can wrap your fingers round my thumb and hold me tight.
And you'll be alright.
[Verse 4:]
'Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life.
Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why.
This song was written by Ed Sheeran when his friends lost an unborn child. He said he tried to write it from their perspective. I found this song and dedicated it to my girl Rachel.
I want to hang this sign outside my house. Some days the cats are more naughty than the dogs.
This google image made me laugh! Looks like these two were figuring their taxes as that deadline is approaching on Monday! They don't look very happy, no refund perhaps, for more dog bones and cat treats! I hope you visit Aw...Monday and join Sandee and others who share some super fun and cute pets each Monday.
Brittany and Jeremy, they are so happy. It is getting very exciting, getting so close to the wedding date. Thirteen days to go.
Maxine seems to have an opinion on everything, including Tax Day. Don't forget, it is Monday April 18th!
