Blue Monday

Springtime is very bittersweet to me. Having so many losses makes it a happy and sad time in my four seasons of life. I have been blue for a number of days. Today would have been the birthday of my oldest sibling and sister Pat. She was incredible. I miss her phone calls, I miss her smile and her incredibly beautiful talents. She could sew like a dream and she loved life and her phamily. When I see her granddaughters today it makes me smile. She raised five sons with her husband Gary. She always said, God will give me granddaughters, I just know it! He did, Racheile, Shelby and McKenzie. She even has great daughters too - Hannah and Paisley Joe, daughters of her first born grand child Joseph. Racheile is a sweet business pro involved is lots of different organizations using her skills and talents to make our world better.  I don't know much about Shelby these days, she is the same age as my grandson Colton, 20, and she has Crohn's disease.  McKenzie is the dancer. How proud my sis would be. Then there is Andrea and Nick and one of their three kiddos, Mayleigh is also a girl. My nephew Ed is quite proud of this sweet phamily and my sister would be smiling at the things Miss Mayleigh comes up with. Her great grands also include, Timothy and Beckett and Jeremiah. Sis, I bet you are smiling down on all of them from heaven above.

Look at those loooooooong legs my sissy had! she was a Cowgirl with my brother Bill and check out the cool car behind them.

My sis with her kids and hubby and first grandchild Joseph. She and Gary did a great job raising that young man.

Our daddy would say , this is my pretty Patty. My sister is was a beautiful human being. Happy birthday to you in heaven today.

Today is also the day in the year 1987 when a very cutting and cruel doctor said my baby Rachel was no longer "viable" and I would have to go through a painstaking delivery.  I am very careful when I speak to others regarding various issues, you do not know how hurtful, thirty years later, it is, when many liberal views about abortion lash at at me. Unless you have lost a child, you will never ever understand the continual pain stabbing at your heart.

Tiny footprints, the feet of Miss Rachel Lee Robinson, who went back to the Lord as quickly as she came to me.

I am sad and then the dogs charge the door as if they never saw the mail carrier before. They hand me this delightful card from a dear friend in Pennsylvania. A gentle soul struggling with the loss of his father 7 months ago. I too, know that pain. So he sends this cheerful card and makes me smile through my tears. God really knows our hearts.

A friend knows our heart.

Monday pals for Aw....Mondays with Sandee, a friend who I treasure dearly. She is always  watching out for me making sure I link in!
The letter "O" today is for owl! My sis Pat loved owls and always said you should have a figurine of an owl or a painting in your home to bring you good luck! She learned that from my mom. Mom never changed a calendar before the actual date appeared saying it wasn't good luck! SO here is a sweet owl to share in memory of my sister:

An pretty painting of an owl for Blue Monday as well. I hope your day is beautiful.